Chasing Horizons.

2011-10-26T22:35:00.003+08:00

It has been a while. So Semester 2 have started and I guess I'm here in SP for good. Gotta start studying and make sure my grades climb up! There can't be simply a way that I will get grades worse than my Semester 1 results.

Life has been well lately. Been meeting up with old friends and I can say I enjoyed their company, and I really did. But I can't help but to start thinking after every meet-up. Am I important to anyone? If I were to disappear for just one day, who would actually notice and miss me?
Throughout my life I've learned how to be alone. And going for runs every now and then kind of reinforces that. A lonely life I may lead, but I hope there are people I can lean onto whenever I'm in the time of need.

October's ending and I can say it's been smooth-sailing thus far. Didn't really have a fantastic birthday but I had a quiet one, just like any other birthday I had for years. The final few months of 2011 are arriving real soon and I hope I can end the year on a good note.

Until then.

Thoughts.

2011-08-22T14:24:00.004+08:00

It's really amazing how going back to doing things that you love can instantly bring you that sense of euphoria you can never get from anything else. Went for a run yesterday, and all the unhappiness cluttered up in my head seemed to have vanished. Whether the going away of the thoughts are for good or not, let's just leave that for the future to take care of.

I'm a happier person now. :) Although I have yet to feel genuinely happy.

Woke up today feeling great, even though I only had a meagre amount of sleep (probably cause of the restlessness feeling after running). Wanted to resume to Math but I had that itch to use the computer (you may as well can call me a tragic Internet addict). Stumbled upon a few blogs of people, fellow students caught up in the humdrum routine that is the education system of Singapore. It was insightful to read their blog posts. Their thoughts materialised into sentences and the tone of speech that they used. Pretty much reminded me of the reason why I started blogging again. Even though there is more than meets the eye, reading their posts and finding out snippets of their lives which they have allowed to be put up online like an open book made me go into introspection. They may not be entirely the way they are as they portray themselves in their blogs, but the deep content found in their words made me realise how empty my life is. How hollow is the shell that I'm living in.

I simply do not know how to convey my thoughts across anymore. I've been saying that my command of the English language has went into decadence but I realised I have never done anything to improve on it either. It's time to start loving the English language again. So this is it folks, this blog might be alive just how it was in the beginning when I just created this space.

I need to embrace life again. I need to enjoy living. I need to make use of what I have to be who I want to be. It's been long since I've really been myself and I can say 2011 is not bringing the best out of me so far. It's barely bringing out any part of me at all. Reading the old posts in my former blog really got me thinking. How was I so optimistic back then? What was the driving force in my life during that period of time? I have so many thoughts of the past. Call me naive but I just want to be in a familiar place again. But I now see that life does not work that way. I do not know whether there is still time for me to salvage my academics, but in life as a whole, I should start reclaiming myself.

You've got to be in control with what you do in order to be who you want to be.
Life does not wait for anyone.
Why settle for mediocrity when you can achieve greatness?
It's time to start living again.

It's time for redemption. Here we go.

Emptiness.

2011-08-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

On my previous post, I've said that it was long since I've felt genuinely good. Well, all I can say is that being genuinely happy is a different thing altogether. Life's been mundane as it has been since the beginning of 2011.

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Semestral exams are coming in a few days' time and I have yet to feel really prepared for it. Not that I care, anyway. All I want to do is to scrape through this semester and hope that I don't fail any modules, especially Math. Cause if that happens, there's a high chance I won't be in SP anymore. I'd choose to drop out and enroll in a JC next year. And even though that choice so tempting, I have that part of me that wants to stay. Try new things. For that it's only the first semester. There'd be bound to have something I'd like to study. I chose this course in the first place, no? But even so, there's another part of me that's wanting to leave this place. Start all over. So it's like a tug-of-war between my thoughts and it's messing me up. And if I do make it next semester, I just hope I can find back my old self during the upcoming holidays to ensure I have the correct mindset into wanting to do well then.

Honestly I don't even see the reason why am I in this course. Yeah, I have a passion for sports and I want to study sports science, but after spending a couple of months here, I really question myself. Why take the leap of faith coming into this course and let myself get fucked? Math and science are not really the subjects I'm good at. I could be enjoying life in some course that emphasises the use of language and love for the arts, but I'm not. I'm stuck in this rut. People tell me you can enjoy things only if you have the proper attitude and open-mindedness. I'd love to have that. I really do. And anyone who have known me for years would recall the optimistic person I actually was. One who was full of zest for the thing that is life. But I just don't see the reason to have a good mindset. Everything just sucks.

People would ask me why am I not happy being in a course that is predominantly full of girls. In my honest God damn opinion, why the fuck would I be? I'm not a 14-year old kid with raging hormones. To the guys who would think being in my position would be enjoyable because you can have a feast for the eyes, go and fuck yourself. Fucking grow up. Treat ladies with respect. Do you want your girlfriend to be constantly checked out by douchebags? I fucking don't think so.

I really should be working my ass off trying to prevent what I've mentioned above from happening, but there isn't any motivation for me to continue. And truthfully there's a little part of me that's secretly wanting to get the fuck out from this place. It's not that I'm being treated badly or anything. There is just simply nothing in particular that's keeping me here. The people whom I've met since I've stepped into SP have been really nice, well mostly. Genuinely great people I would say. But even then, I have no impetus that's giving me the drive to wanting to stay. I'm just living life as it goes in this empty cycle. Simply drifting along the empty spaces.

Now I just hope I manage to get through the exams. Take it from there and see what I can do in changing things. Working on empty motivation but I guess that's all I have.

I really need to talk to someone. Someone whom I can trust. But after going through so many things in recent years, I wonder whether I could trust anyone else other than myself. Maybe I don't have to place trust on anyone. Maybe I just need someone who is willing to spend their time with me, sharing with each other our problems. The presence of a real friend is what I need.

Till then, take care everyone.
Even if we're facing so many troubles, we all still have to be grateful at the very least.
Be grateful that we're alive.

Blessed.

2011-08-06T22:46:00.003+08:00

Finally, a day where I feel genuinely good. And not the kind where I'm just forcing a smile out of my pale tired face. I've learnt to treasure days like this since 2011's not really treating me well.

I used to tell myself, "Appreciate the small things, they bring happiness if you look closely." Guess I haven't really been applying that for quite a while now. Maybe the longing for the past got well over me. I don't know why I can't seem to stop thinking about the past either. Like I said before, emptiness is what fills my life currently. However, I've been slowly taking note of a lot of things recently. The relationships I have with people, where and what I've become, the achievements or least that tiny number of accomplishments which I can be proud of and basically everything up to this point. School has been rather troubling. Exams are nearing and I'm at risk of staying back for another semester since I'm not doing well for 2 of my modules. The thought of that just scares me. And I've been thinking of what my consequent actions would be if I were to stay back; drop out of Polytechnic, find a job and work for the rest of the year and enroll in a Junior College next year? I hope I would not have to do that. I've met numerous people here in SP and I'm slowly beginning to think I can actually have fun and make some memories here. Oh well, all the more I should work hard and hope for the best.

Ah, it's been so long since I've actually been active in blogging. It's now up to the point where I ain't sure of how to really convey my thoughts into sentences here. Le sigh.

Anyway, I'm learning to be more grateful. Grateful for being alive, grateful for having people who will be there for me, grateful that I'm still given chances to improve myself in order to be a better person, grateful that I have a home and just grateful for everything.

Trying to piece my life back together. And I hope it works. It must.

2011-07-31T18:22:00.001+08:00

The old feelings are coming back. Argh.

:)

2011-07-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

So here I am again. About 4-5 months since I've last posted? Heh. I think I'll attempt at typing regular posts here again. It will be a good habit either way. I need a form of catharsis to purge my thoughts. And reviving my old blog would be the solution. Besides, pursuing a science-based course in a polytechnic isn't helping in me wanting to prevent my command of English from becoming bad to worse. I surely need to get back my literature-loving self again.

I am simply tired. Tired of giving a shit for people when I ain't getting anything back. Like I've said before in my previous posts, I wonder who would be there for me as much as how I would want to be there for them. It'll be real nice if I have someone who I can talk to everyday. A good friend. I just need a good friend. That could be why I'm always thinking about the past. Hmmm.

Well, 2011 has been a rather empty year so far. It's not the kind of empty where you have nothing to do. It's more of having to find yourself just existing in the midst of everything. You don't see yourself having goals to achieve, you don't see how would you want to mould your future, you just don't see anything happening ahead. I am a liar if I say that I do not think about the past every day. People would say life's only getting more difficult when you get older. But I can't help it. Changes are happening way too fast now and I'm having trouble adjusting. Familar faces and places are all not within my grasp and it sucks. I'm just screwing myself up.

Three and a half months of the year were spent as my holidays continuing from the end of my 'O's which ended in November. That being said, school only started just 2-3 months ago. It felt much longer than that. Or maybe it's just because of my thoughts I'm having every single day. I can't help myself but to reminisce of the good times in secondary school. How everyone then just happen to know each other even though we might not talk much or even not have a proper conversation before. I miss everything. And it'll be a much more lengthier post if I talk about it. Anyway, It's funny how I find myself so exhausted after school when I ain't even doing anything proper. I've been slacking ever since school started. I had a week of tests the past week and I can basically say I'm fucked.

Maybe that's the reason why I'm here posting. I've got to get my priorities straight. I've got to put thoughts of the past aside and focus on being comfortable in the present. I know it'll be difficult. But I have to start somewhere. I have to find my self-discipline. It's been a while since I've forced myself to do anything but I guess it's now or never.

"You can’t get much done in life if you only work on the days when you feel good." - Jerry West.

Ah, posting here feels good. Hope I'll bother to do this again.

Till then, everyone.

I just need someone to talk to. A good friend.

2011-02-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder who would remember me.
Sometimes I wonder whose lives I made an impact in. (in a positive way of course!)
Sometimes I wonder who take me as someone important in their life, regardless of how much have we talked to each other in recent times.

Sometimes I wonder... who would be there for me, as much as how I would be there for them.

I kind of finally bothered to reflect on recent happenings and so here I am.
A few days back, I almost died, like literally, and I shudder whenever I think about it again. A car almost ran over when I was out crossing a road (the green man was lit up for goodness) and I was pretty damn lucky to be given a second chance to continue living. Can't thank god enough for that. Well, the details about it ain't important and I kinda was held back then so I can't remember much about it anymore.

Ever since then, I've been putting much thought into so many things. Who would really care if the outcome of that incident wasn't what it was? How much have I actually achieved throughout my life up to this point? How many people have I mustered up the courage to tell them they mean so much to me?

A lot of things are brought to new perspectives now. I may not have a strong command of language nor do I have an apt level of intellect/knowledge but I try my best in putting my words across in the way that I can.

For weeks I've been noticing that I don't react to things the way I would or should. Been wondering whether is it apathy or that I'm just tired of so many things. Or maybe I need to put my energy into piecing my life back together. I'm losing the zest for life that I once had.

Maybe, I need a good friend to talk to.

After so long, I wonder why you are still on my mind. Sigh.

2011-02-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

Mmhmm, taking a look at my sidebar (which I removed most of the parts)... I realised I sound like a total douchebag. Not to mention in the way how I bring about my posts back then. Gotta change from that, seriously.

Shucks, it's been a while. Don't seem to have that vibe to write about things yet.
Meh. Till the time I have an idea of what to post about. Peace!

2011-02-12T22:50:00.003+08:00

Woah! It's been quite a while since I last blogged. Guess I might return to blogging here or somewhere else. Felt like I needed a space to jot down thoughts or whatnot even though I'd be the writer and the sole reader. Who would visit this space (which has been empty for SO LONG) now anyway?

Life's been great. Since 2009, things have mellowed down by far so much now. Didn't try and learn much new things. Speaking of which, the few years before 2009 was crazy! Undertook so many things/sports to learn and build up on experience. Didn't know why I bothered to try and learn all of that when I kinda forgotten the stuff taught back then. Haha!

Man, it was a blast. Not to mention the time in school during that period of time too! Met lovely people and I hope we'd all still be in contact from years to come. Hmm, I don't know. Although it has been quite sometime since I talked to most of them, it's gratifying to know that they're having awesome lives. I hope it's true to what I see! Such great people deserve it. It would be super if there's an opportunity to catch up with some of them if not everyone. Over the span of these few years, I'm sure everyone has grown up from any petty differences or grudges and the way we converse now would be so much different! Heck, it might seem like we're getting to know someone new. Who knows? :)

The time from 2009-2010 was awesome too. Was still given the opportunity to get to know more lovely people in school and to build up on current relationships with friends. Though the time was more spent onto studies or whatnot, I'm glad we still had the chance to mingle and get to know each other more. There's still arguments over things, but I believe that's all in the past and everyone's all well with one another now! I hope! :) They say friends from secondary school are ones whom you will keep for the rest of your life and I believe that statement holds much truth.

In short, secondary school life will always be remembered. The experiences, the people, everything. I feel so blessed. Even though it may not have been so great if you take a second look at it, but I'm satisfied with what I got and I'm ever so grateful. It's all up to your perception. You can never be happy if you find that things are not up to your satisfaction. I don't know whether I've changed from the first half of my secondary school life, be it for the better or for the worst, but I'm willing to learn. And when I'm going to a new place to continue my education, the urge to change for the better (by small steps of course!) has never been so much. Am excited to meet new people, learn new things, try new things, whatever.

Still having my holidays now, and I've been hanging out with my Malay amigos recently. I'm starting to realise that you got to find the right people to be with. People come and go, and you've got to make your stand and take a look at which who would bother to be by your side through thick and thin. I didn't see that earlier and that period of time was rather tormenting. Was wrecking my brains out and soon I began to take notice. You've GOT to choose the right kind of friends. You can't just wait and see who would pick you up. It doesn't work that way.

Ah, and I'm beginning to run out of things to talk about. Until next time.

Hmm.

2010-04-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

It's been long since I last typed anything here, and it's been long since I typed out some of the things that I have been thinking about.

Most of the time nowadays it would be just sorting out of thoughts and forgetting all about it. And after reading through some of the posts that I have left here, it made me realise upon the fact that I had forgotten about the place where typing things out would make me feel good, or at least make me feel like I have materialised my thoughts onto a space, leaving a sense of reflection, which I have not been doing in months.

Maybe this could mean that blogs really do serve a purpose; keeping emotions and thoughts in check.

I've been too lazy lately, and it's making me feel pathetic and inadequate. I don't know what's wrong with me, even knowing that exams and the major Os are coming, isn't making me move an inch. I know I've got to do something about it real quick, but I do not know what can I do in the first place to make all of the inadequency and laziness to go away.

Somehow the negative vibes are a way of my subconscious self telling me that I'm straying away from the path which I should be heading towards to.

But either way I've got to do some soul-searching, and hoping my daily prayers would guide me back to the path of where I am supposed to be at.

I really have to do something, before it is all too late.
Life now is too hectic and I've got to get back on track.

Hope everyone's doing well though!

2010-02-23T23:24:00.001+08:00

I seriously need to know what are my priorities -.-

Been slacking wayyy too much.

2010-02-13T23:02:00.002+08:00

1. Plan a running route around the neighbourhood.
2. Get into running attire.
3. Wear running shoes.
4. Step outside.
5. Warm up.
6. Run.

Repeat.
Get a better time.
Feel accomplished, that you're faster than your previous form.

The simple joy of running. =)

2010-02-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

Spiritual enlightenment was what I needed these few days, I guess.

Going to try and change for the better. =)

2010-02-05T21:35:00.001+08:00

Run. Run. Run. Run. Run.

2010-01-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

Bloody hell my tagboard looks so pathetic LOL.

2010-01-25T18:31:00.002+08:00

"hopefully I'll be able to deliver what as expected of me soon."?

I take it back. I failed in doing so.
I just don't know what happened to me in badminton ever since the start of January.
I really, don't know.

Disappointment.

2010-01-23T19:10:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I would just sit down and think. Think about what's going on in life and the possibilities that lies in the future. Sometimes I wonder how things would turn out in an alternate ending if I include the 'what-if's. Sometimes I wonder who are the people that would be there for me, as much as how I want to be there for them.

And sometimes... I wonder whether am I being myself.

Also on whether am I searching for what I'm looking for at the wrong places. Where in fact it might be just already be right there, without me noticing it.

----
Anyway,
The Multi-Level Activites (MLA) that happened over 3 days (Wednesday-Friday) have indeed provided the break we all needed after 2 weeks + first 2 days of Week 3. Though I'm not elaborating on what we have done, at the least I would say that the time away from books has indeed given me a lot of time to think about life and other stuff. And I'm glad that I have more or less organised out my train of thoughts that was all cluttered to a mess after the stress from school.

Hope everyone is doing fine too =)

Badminton wasn't smooth-sailing ever since the start of the new year. I've been giving very poor performance during training and it is even more disappointing to have the new coach, Coach Alvin to see this kind of standard coming from me from the first day he came to coach. I hope it's now safe for me to say that I've been getting my form back this week, and hopefully, just hopefully, I would be able to deliver of what as expected from me soon.

I've a lot of other things to type out but maybe I'll just keep it to myself. I doubt there's much readers as evident from my tagboard anyway.

So, take care everyone.
And to all readers who just come and go, please leave a tag at least! =)
My tagboard is dying. Hahah.

Make the best out of what's left for January!

2010-01-10T17:45:00.003+08:00

So yeah... here we are, on a (seemingly) perfect Sunday evening!

A long, good night of sleep during the weekend was what I needed.
Now I'm somewhat ready to face what's expected of me next week.
Hope everyone else are too!

Life's been a tough ride ever since school started. Battling lethargy and procrastination is never an easy thing. Knowing that tons of stress, not forgetting expectations that's needed of you, coming straight to your face is another difficult thing too. I've a feeling that this year will be filled with so much invaluable experience. And I'm grateful for that.

All we got to do is to stay positive and have faith.
We've got to face adversity well by staying strong throughout.
Albeit being easier to be said than done, I believe we all can overcome these obstacles with an optimistic state of mind.

Have a goal.
Without setting a target for ourselves, we would be too comfortable staying in our own personal comfort zone and then we won't be able to achieve the success we all yearn for.
We can only achieve that and more greater things if we exceed our own expectations.
Setting a goal is just a small stepping stone, which would lead to so much more.

Never give up trying.
In whatever situation you are all at now, may you all make the best out of it.
What doesn't kill you, would only make you stronger.
All the best, to everyone out there.

2010-01-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

2010-01-08T01:22:00.001+08:00

I've been posting real short posts for the past few days, making it seem that I should just get a Twitter account instead. Oh well, I guess I would be posting something proper when the weekend arrives. Maybe I'll just recap on what happened this week?

And I just could not wait to find the time to catch up on my sleep!

I think I'll just end this quick post here.
Take care everyone!

2010-01-06T22:25:00.003+08:00

I've got to adjust to the pace of school now.
I just don't feel like the normal 'me' anymore nowadays.

2010-01-05T22:39:00.001+08:00

I'd do anything right now to get some sleep that is not filled with guilt nor regret.

Oh well, back to homework.

!@#%@^!

2010-01-05T02:47:00.004+08:00

Now I can more or less say that I know what lies ahead for me in this 4th year of secondary school.

Sleepless nights and stressing out.

I'm in for a joy ride. (insert as much sarcasm as possible)

2010-01-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

Pardon me but I'm going to be really blunt in this.

First day of the new school year of 2010?

Sucks. Big time.

Perseverance

2010-01-02T14:50:00.003+08:00

If at first you don't succeed, Try, try again.
- Thomas H. Palmer (1782 - 1861)

Although this quote has been rather overused till it becomes a cliche,
there's still truth in it.

Don't give up, in whatever situation you are currently at.

There will be light at the end of the tunnel, if you keep trying and keep believing.
Have faith.

2010!

2010-01-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone. (:
May the new year be filled with love and laughter!

Have a blessed 2010!

2009-12-31T11:30:00.004+08:00

So, how are the days going for everyone?

Been pretty unlucky lately, having my hard disk to crash when I need it the most. So basically all my files accumulated over the years are gone ; pictures, videos, songs,
GONE. LIKE. THE. WIND.
The fact that hurts the most? I don't have a back up. (-___-)

Oh and because of the loss, I also lost my holiday homework as a result. I just happen to be lazy and decided to use the computer to do the work, and in which I didn't expect something like a crash would happen anytime soon.

So I'm pretty much screwed all over, with knowing that school is going to start in like, what, 4 more days? I have to re-do every single homework that I did on my computer. And hell no I'm going to use the computer to do it. In case the hard disk start being a b-tch and crashes again.
Thanks to my brother, for fixing it!

Aside from that unlucky situation, life's been good.
And I hope everyone's having a great time as well (:

With the fact that the new school term is going to start real soon, I've got to use the remaining time of what's left in this year to make sure that everything's right and done with, in preparation for next year. Gotta seclude myself from all forms of enjoyment for these few days. It's time to get serious already. I guess I had more than enough fun this holiday.

I have to stop training for the rest of the week too, in order to open up more time that can be used more productively in terms of making myself ready for school. Although I'll be guilty of not training as much as I can now, it wouldn't be much of a problem, since my left knee and my right calf is killing me at the moment. I couldn't do any proper training even if I wanted to.

Hahah. I guess this post is probably the longest I have ever typed in a while.

Alright, here's wishing everyone a very blessed new year ahead =)
Go all the way in 2010!

2009-12-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

In. Need. Of. A. Good. Run.

5k run, anyone?

Reminisce.

2009-11-23T23:16:00.006+08:00

A sudden burst of nostalgia struck me,
overwhelming me with past memories.

I miss 2e3'08.

sometimes, when I reflect and look back into the past,
seeing myself in the class 2e3, during the year of 2008,
I'm secretly wanting to be like how I was back then.

even for just a while.

to be with my former classmates, to just enjoy life bit by bit,
minute by minute.

ultimately,
the time spent in 2e3'08 was very much gratifying.
and how I wish the emotions and everything would all return.

2009-11-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'll post, soon! May the blogger self be revived!

Tired.

2009-11-11T22:04:00.006+08:00

Really can't wait for the holiday lessons to end.
With the work and preparation for tests (yeah right LOL) that are needed to be done,
There's barely time to rest after training.

And without proper and ample rest, the benefits from training will be minimal.
But what to do? Studies comes first nonetheless.
Though I really wish I have time to read my recently bought book and of course catch up on my sleep! Still, I'm guilty of procrastinating of what I have to do once I'm home. (heh heh)

Well, there's really nothing much else to post about.
I guess I'll just have to end it here.

Hope everyone are enjoying their month of November!

Joy.

2009-11-06T18:31:00.001+08:00

WOO HOO THE WEEK IS OVER.

w00t.

2009-10-28T18:48:00.005+08:00

So many days out of 60 days are for badminton training alone.
*edited. now it seems like there's badminton everyday (LOL).
with addition to track and field training, self-training days and days spent studying and polishing up my weak subjects for school, the holidays will be one heck of a rollercoaster ride.

Always ready for any challenge.
Besides, life isn't fun if there's no challenges to overcome.

Bring it on.

It's going to be an awesome holiday. w00t.

Change?

2009-10-18T20:31:00.002+08:00

I finally got the mood to blog, though prior to this, I was doing practically nothing productive.
At least there's a change now.

Speaking of changes, I'm planning to use a couple of hours to revamp this space.
Also, relinking and removing of dead links would be implemented too.

My daily train of thoughts are finally not messed up now too, I hope?

Alright, a big revamp and a revert to proper blogging, soon!

Thoughts.

2009-10-14T21:42:00.007+08:00

There have been a lot of stuff going through my mind lately, wondering on how everyone have changed over a year. On how I find myself last year being so much different than who I am today. It's both amusing and saddening to know that many things can change in such a short period of time. I guess that at this point of life, we are all still very much at the stage of growing up. It would be difficult to be in control of the changes in our own selves.

Hence, it is inaccurate to assume that one is the same as they would be in the past.

Long story short ;
"You might not know people whom you have known in the past, anymore."

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“When you’re around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you, and when they change or go away, you don’t know who you are without them.”

2009-10-09T12:02:00.002+08:00

Nicole: Well actually sorry to impede but, O's schedule is like this too. Expect humanities and science tgt, it's always how it's been.

In response to Nicole's tag,
Yeah, I've heard about that, but we should and are expected to be prepared for any subject then since we would have done thorough preparation prior to the 'O's?

But for our case now, doesn't it seem totally uncalled for? Given the fact that some of the subjects' syllabus for the year were only able to be completed just a few days before the exams?

Well I don't know. Just my two-cents.

WTF.

2009-10-06T22:43:00.002+08:00

F__.

I'll screw up this SA2 so badly, I just know it.
I don't know what's wrong.

Screw this.

Move On.

2009-10-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

Still pissed at the way our final year exams are planned.

Screwed up my Mathematics and History.
(though screwing Mathematics up is a norm for me heh heh)

But I can't do anything to change anything,
only to carry on and focus on what's ahead.
It will be such a big relief after Wednesday.

Hope everyone's coping well.

Frustrated.

2009-10-04T18:59:00.004+08:00

Wasted too much time during the day.
Can't seem to get myself to sit down and focus on revision fully.

I'm so screwed.

And by looking and knowing what's in store for the upcoming week,
isn't making things to be any better.

I SERIOUSLY DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW THE F___ THE EXAMINATION TIMETABLE IS F___ING PLANNED.

Contrasting subjects being put together on the same day?
WTF much?

I bet a lot (if not all) of people would agree that the timetable is messed up.
Oh well, what to do?

Contented.

2009-10-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

Though I didn't do anything memorable today,
I still feel glad nonetheless.

I may not be that lucky to be given the opportunity
to do the usual things people get to do on their birthdays,
but I'm already very much satisfied with what I have.

Still, it would have been nice if there was at least something to do,
rather than idling around the house, doing nothing.

Oh well, the day will be over in minutes from the time that this entry is posted.
Now, it's back to preparation for the exams.

Thanks again, to all who cared.

Enlightenment.

2009-10-02T00:00:00.005+08:00

I will become a year older today.
I'm surprised that there are people who bothered to remember,
though I've (secretly) wished that nobody would.

I've been apathetic toward such occasions,
not going to care if the day is going to turn out great or not.
Just want it to go as ordinary as possible?

How foolish and selfish I have been all along,
not realising there are people who trouble themselves,
even for a few seconds,
to wish me a good day.
Until now.

I'm grateful.
Even before the day approaches,
there are people who have already wished in advance.

Although wishes are just wishes,
I could and would not ask for anything more.

Thank you, everyone.
May you all have a good day as well.
Seize every single day to the fullest.
'Cause life is a precious thing.

hope it would really be a good day. (:

WTF.

2009-09-30T19:29:00.002+08:00

For Friday,
not only that I have to prepare and remember my stuff for Mother Tongue properly, I have to prepare for something very much physical?

Calvin you ass. LOL. THANKS ARH.

Languor.

2009-09-27T14:57:00.002+08:00

Lack of both mental and physical energy to do anything today.
It's just one of the days where you want to sleep,
or just get out of the house and take a long nice walk.

Thinking about taking a walk this Friday.
Would be nice to treat myself to a good walk at the Bukit Batok Nature Reserve nearby.
To recluse myself from the world just for a while.
Besides, nobody or maybe a mere number of people would remember what day Friday is.
Heck, I don't really care about it myself.

Urgh, too listless to continue posting.

Take care, everyone.

Hiatus.

2009-09-24T21:38:00.002+08:00

It's a week away before the start of the final exams.
Will still be posting, though. Provided that I have the time.
Just want to make sure that I'll be able to do all of the papers with no regrets.

All the best to everyone.

Ok, go.

WTF.

2009-09-22T21:16:00.005+08:00

I've never been so pissed at a minor class test, until today.
What good will it do if you find out there's a test, testing on topics that you are worst at, on the night, less than twelve hours (which is used for sleeping) than the test itself?

Oh, we should have the initiative to study for our final exams and be ever-ready for any class test that is going to hit at us?

Well,
1. The other class (my class), only found out about the test on Sunday.
2. Sunday's the first day of Hari Raya.
3. Everyone who is celebrating the festive day would be out and about visiting relatives.
4. It would be rude to not visit our relatives, given the fact that we probably are only able to see them once which is during the time of Hari Raya.
5. Assuming that I would find out about the test on Sunday, I doubt my parents will let me stay at home and not follow them to visit my relatives, just for a pathetic test. It's family after all.
6. For those not celebrating, they would probably use the extended weekend to rest instead and try to revise for the exams casually, not necessarily focusing on a certain subject.

7. Preparing for our final exams doesn't mean we only focus on that subject, there is a possibility we would find other subjects of more importance since we are more confident in doing better for those subjects.
8. How will it help if we don't already understand the topics, how do we study for them?
9. We already do not get our foundation right, how can we follow the lessons that are for revision in that particular number of topics?
10. We then can't practice by doing the homework that the teacher gives us, and we can't ask our teacher, since she assumes and expects us to understand those topics. In turn, we get scolded instead for not doing and also for not following the lesson. (How do we follow if we can't even understand?)
11. When will our teacher understand that we are not good in the subject in the first place and not expecting us to get distinctions from day 1? At least try to understand the reasons behind us not being up to par and not scolding us after we gave the reasons, possibly calling our reasons nonsense. We're being honest after all.

(I can still write so much more)

We may be students and our task is to study for a good education.
BUT,
we're still human.
Do not place so much expectations on us to do well.
Everyone is different and have different talents and capabilities in certain areas.

Urgh, this just makes my blood boil.

2009-09-21T18:31:00.004+08:00

Okay, first thing first, how was the extended weekend for you guys?
Hope it was alright! (:

With the fact that the fasting month is over, it's time to train again (:
Get my fitness back, get my daily energy level back too.

Who cares if the final exams are coming,
as long there is a balance between work and play, it's all fine.
I am a firm believer to that notion (:

Somehow can't wait for school to begin, though I haven't really finish the amount of revision that I had targeted to do for this weekend.
Got to compensate for that by mugging tonight.
Alright, there's nothing much I want to post here already.

so...
(in alphabetical order...)

Happy Birthday Fiona, Jinghui, Sara and Tim! (21/9)
Have a blessed 15th birthday!

2009-09-20T22:33:00.003+08:00

To All Muslims,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin (:

To Non-Muslims,
Enjoy the rest of the extended weekend! Make full use of it! (:

Empowerment.

2009-09-19T17:25:00.003+08:00

I finally experienced the benefits of a power nap. SHIOK AH!

Have a good weekend everyone!

Lassitude.

2009-09-15T22:25:00.009+08:00

Argh, it feels miserable to feel so tired and yet the week has just barely started.
This level of fatigue makes me feel like it's Thursday or something already.
Seriously can't wait for the month of Ramadhan (fasting month) to be over. I am always half-asleep once it's past the afternoon due to fasting.
Would be too tired to do anything then.
Can't wait to resume training too. It has been quite a while since I hit the gym.

Till then, I can only try to keep up with my routine of late-night studying, since I can't focus during the day when I'm fasting. What's worse, this routine of late-night studying is taking a toll on my energy for the next day.
Inevitably trapped in this vicious cycle.
Furthermore, I could only remember vaguely of the material I studied the night before, making the late-night study session utterly pointless.

Oh, and when I thought that I could skip a session tonight and catch up on my 'Z's, I remembered that I got homework to do. It is my fault, though, since I've let the homework to snowball and accumulate over the weeks. There's a test tomorrow too, oh joy.

I better start getting my ass off to the study table to do the work now,
before I get fully engulfed by procrastination.

Hope everyone else is doing alright, while I get held up by this languidness.

Sigh.

Transition.

2009-09-13T22:39:00.004+08:00

It's the start of a new term, the last race to the final exams for the year.
Also, possibly the beginning of the mad rush for the big 'O's in 2010?

Well whatever it is, all the best to everyone!
Make the best out of the remaining months in 2009!
Seize every moment, every day. =))

(p/s: Happy Birthday Farhan and Alif! Wish you two all the best in your future endeavours!)

Screwed. (for now)

2009-09-13T22:07:00.004+08:00

A project assignment + poor communication = Epic fail.

'enough said.

Tagbacks.

2009-09-13T21:18:00.003+08:00

Mabel : Hey yo! Really ah? Appreciate it much man! ahhah.

Calvin(: : wah, finally tagged!

JINGHUI : HELLO. THANK YOU COME AGAIN.

09/09/2009

2009-09-09T09:09:00.001+08:00

I just had to timestamp this.

9.09am - 09/09/2009

Holidays? NOT.

2009-09-08T21:55:00.005+08:00

It''s been 6 days since my "comeback"?
Nothing much to post about anyway! :x
Heh, there's rarely people visiting this space,
but if there is a few, please leave a tag at the tagboard yeah. (:

How's the September "holidays" been going on for you people?
The week would probably mean a mad rush for most of us in preparing for the EOYs
since it's just 20 days away.
Plus, I don't understand how does the school set the exam timetable.

Mathematics + History.
Social Studies + Physics.
SERIOUSLY? -__-"

Maybe it's for us to worry more beforehand,
to make us know that last-minute studying doesn't work.
Psychological tactic much? (if the purpose was for that.)

I've got to work on so many things to prepare for the exams.

Such as:

Comprehension and Summary for English.
EVERYTHING FOR MALAY! (LOL)
Algebra for Mathematics.
Understanding and memorising of Chemistry concepts.
Same goes to Physics
A more structured way of studying Geography (instead of memorising the chapters in a clutter)
Understanding with clarity (HOM! LOL) of the texts for Literature.
Know the methods to answer SBQ questions well and have a thorough understanding of Social Studies and History.

Oh no, typing all of that just scares me, the 20 days till the exams will be VERY fast.
Ahh, thank god that I've started preparing.

All the best to all for their exams!
On a sidenote, it's 12 more days till Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Rejoice!

Comeback.

2009-09-02T21:31:00.005+08:00

It's been so long since this blog is open to the public.
anyone missed reading this space? I doubt so. (LOL)

Well, it was very long time ago since the last public post before I made the blog private.
4 months ago?
Yep, but I decided to make my space public again, just for the sake of it.

A great deal of stuff happened in the 4 months since the previous post, and I'm glad to say that life's been worthwhile, even though it has not been that interesting. Heck, I can try to recall the events that I remember but I doubt no one visits this blog anymore.
I hope that changes though. (:

I'm still as introspective, even more perhaps, thinking about life, et cetera.
Life's too short, ain't it?

Great, can't make this post longer since I got rusty in using Blogger. C'mon, it's been 4 months! Just gotta settle with this much then (:
Will post more people! Hope those readers come back to read my random thoughts and entries.
If not, then I'll still be posting anyway, since I seriously need to use this as an avenue to share my thoughts and about things that happen here and there.

Ciao!

Thoughts.

2009-05-15T11:40:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I really wonder, as I sit down and reflect on how the year blitzed through and how people change right before me.

Where did the joy in people's faces has gone to? It is all but a mask now? People changed this year, with the outcome, both negatively and positively.

I still remember, when I'm an asshole to people last year around this time, giving them attitude, being complacent and arrogant, but I'm glad it's all in the past now, well, that's what I believe even if people beg to differ, I'm glad I'm much more less of those negative traits(:

I learnt about my mistakes from then on, trying to change, trying to be a better person, just learning to be friendly to everyone.
Knowing that respect is something earned, not given.
Still up till now, I'm still trying to learn more about myself, more about others, just wanting to live life in a positive mindset.

Just sharing my thoughts people (:

2009-05-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

“When you’re around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you, and when they change or go away, you don’t know who you are without them.” -Sarah Headley

Mentality.

2009-04-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Training went well today!
Did tempo runs,
and I'm beginning to think that my ankle problem that have been plaguing me for more than half a year now is gone, more or less!
Form was good, still need to work on the arms though.

Now I'll be more than happy to forget the disappointments in performance from January up till now, cos I finally found my form back. Bring on the drive for more training!
Now I understand why rehabilitation of an injury is so important. Hahah.

Okay, studies-wise,
Hope study session after training today was productive. It's just a week til SA1!
Not confident about it, totally not prepared!

If That's How The Story Goes.

2009-04-24T18:57:00.005+08:00

Taken during training. 23/04/09

Whoa, the past week have been full of stuff.

Finally found some time to do some training, yesterday. Found a nice route which is suitable for hill training (: Been so long since I got back my form. Thank god I feel good throughout! Only had about 2 hours to train so just did 6x200m and 3x400-200-400-200-400. Man, it does feel good after rehabilitating an ankle injury for months. Hah, to cover up the setbacks early this year, gotta participate in more local races! More experience yo. Hahah.

Ciao!

Effort?

2009-04-22T22:04:00.005+08:00

Tsk. I feel so cheated, more than ever.
This can really justify the statement ; Effort doesn't equate to result sometimes.

It's okay really, but... it is really like rubbing salt into the wound.
When you get nothing out of it.

People are right, "Life is never fair."

Thoughts.

2009-04-20T23:08:00.007+08:00

Life's too short, why live it in a melancholic manner?
Everyone want the best out of their lives,
and it wouldn't hurt praying for the best of others.
So why create problems for yourself, and other people around you?

I'd say, be happy.
Take every experience as a stepping stone,
towards finding strength to pursue things in life.

Life doesn't have to make sense.

Fatigue.

2009-04-15T20:42:00.004+08:00

Stressed. Tons to do! SA1 coming up as well.
I need to take a breather...
Can I borrow time for just a day to sleep?
Sigh, it will never happen, not in a lifetime.
Feeling so guilty now, some work overdue!

But bah, it's all going to pay back in the end, hopefully.
Not going to let this fatigue dampen my spirit.

Strive on!

hiatus.

2009-04-11T17:56:00.003+08:00

Yup, it's time for me to go to hiatus again.
I don't think I will be anywhere ending it this month though.
Should be probably after the Semestral Examinations 1?
That would be around May I guess, or maybe I'll just end it soon but will post very casually.
So yup, gotta settle down and get my priorities straight.
Besides, my posts are getting more mundane as each post get posted.

All the best to all in their life happenings every now and then. Jiayou!

Whoo.

2009-04-10T16:35:00.004+08:00

11 more days!

Hmm, haven't been posting for a while now.
Caught up with stuff to do uh.

Starting to lose pace in lessons already.
Gotta sit down and study to catch up on my work.
I need good time management manzx.
SA1 is coming very soon, with Mother Tongue Paper on the 24th OF APRIL. WTF!

Ah, nothing to post already. ciao!

Drive.

2009-04-08T20:32:00.005+08:00

Adrenaline rush.
The euphoria.
The feeling of having to do something efficiently,
to prove a point.

Now I understand what's the "hunger".
I'll live up to your expectations.

I'll leave no stone unturned.
Gotta give my best shot in everything.

This year will be full of setbacks, other than the ones that have passed.
But it will never dampen my fighting spirit, neither will it dampen yours.
ALL THE BEST TO ALL.

/edit ;
Celine : What stamina low sia? LOL. tsk. Don't anyhow say when you haven't seen much yet..

tagbacks.

2009-04-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

Celineee : lol?

Shafiqah <3 : Aiyo, you all arh, can think until "Pangsai Warrior". LOL. You too take care alright.

jodenia:) : yeah lorh. finallyyyyyy. Haha. Ahmabil will try (:(:

#39 : Into A New Light.

2009-03-30T21:49:00.003+08:00

Fever's going away, but headache and a lot of other aching are still there. Haha.
But fever's a good thing though, it removes all the bacteria from my system since a heck lot of white blood cells are formed which caused the rise in body temperature.

Can feel the difference,
I breathe with more ease now, after so long, (like in months?)
The strength is coming back after so long.
Well, maybe this year school's sports events and the National Cross-Country C'ships are just not my luck to do well. I'll just take it as setbacks but still absorb the experiences (:

Give me a new pair of trainers and I'm good to go for more training! Anyone? (; Haha, just kidding.

Alright, nothing more that I want to post here.
Ciaozx.

tagbacks.

2009-03-29T17:27:00.004+08:00

WEIZHI! :) : EH, I ONLY HAPPY ABOUT THE SLAPPING PART KAY. LOL.

naiim : Haha, thanks about the comment of my spikes? Hha, Jimmy's 1st in 1500m. &All the respect back to you uh (:

SHERLYN : NI HAO :D

Celineee : Tsk, ya lar, genius de what. LOL. kidding kidding.

jodenia:) : Yo! Finally your blog's alive eh? Hahaha.

x-M A Y A : LOL. Bored huh? Haha. Thanks for leaving a tag (:

KRISTIE : Whoa, Singapore's really small huh. Haha. Look and talks like me also..? WHAT THE.

#38 : Weak. But Still Trying.

2009-03-26T21:23:00.004+08:00

Feverish, I'm shaking all over since seven o'clock.
I can hereby declare March is the month of bad luck for me!

School's Cross-Country - stomach flu.
School's Track Heats - sprained ankle during 1500m FINALS.
Nationals Cross-Country Championship - disappoint plus my ankle's condition got a whole lot worse.

Now - FEVER!

And for all the critics out there,
I am not asking for sympathy by typing out my month's encounter with bad luck.
This is my blog, my space.
I have the right to type anything (as long I don't include names if I'm ranting).
&of course following Blogger's policies :p

I'm typing all these out to remind myself.
Setbacks and disappointments will never dampen my spirit, no matter how major.
Tired, disappointed, weak, but still trying.

Have faith ; never back down.
If you fall, there's only two choices, stay down or get back up.

I'll promise, I won't disappoint anymore, this is no empty promise.

#37 : Words.

2009-03-25T21:55:00.009+08:00

Sorry that I've let you down,
Sorry to myself for letting my ownself succumb to pure bad luck and injury.

First quarter of 2009's sport events - sucks.

I'll make sure to make it up somehow, someday.
Now's just a rest period for my ankle,
hope it really doesn't lead to what the doctor says.

After then, I'll devote time to training, strict training.
I seriously need to get my form back.

---

But let's not forget about studies.
Seriously need to catch up in my Science.
Yeah yeah I know,
I have only ONE Science subject.
Physics and Chemistry combined together.
Pffft.
5-6weeks till SA1.
Gotta study from NOW.

Studies and training, with other commitments as well.
Sacrifices. So much involved.
But it's now or never.
Life is only as good as how we play it,
so let's play the best of the best,
Shall we?

ALL THE BEST TO ALL WHO ARE WANTING THE MOST OUT OF THEIR LIVES!
AND ARE ABOUT TO DO ANYTHING TO GET IT!

#36 : Ohmygawd.

2009-03-24T19:00:00.007+08:00

Sports Heats today.
Qualified for 400m and 800m finals. Target accomplished (:
Unsure about the 800m part though, since didn't report or something? LOL.
but probably ya.
2 weeks to go till Sports Day!

1500m, first round was at a easy pace, but soon ankle injury acted up again ):
decided to just slowly complete the race anyway.
a possibility of a stress fracture? hope it won't happen. gotta see the doctor soonnn.

congrats to Jimmy, Hafiz and Qi Hao for getting the top3 for the 1500m finals!

Plus the Nationals tomorrow, just gotta stay careful of the ankle and just do the best for the race.
No way I'm going to drop out from the race.

But one thing's that is bothering me though, whether badminton training is changing what I'm more capable of? (sigh)

Ohwell, it doesn't matter. Now I'm more focused in badminton anyway.
As long as I'm in the path to be a better shuttler, I'm elated (:

tagbacks.

2009-03-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

x-M A Y A : LOL. Okay. tagged back alreadyzzx yo. thanks for tagging!

Sec1 badminton junior : don't want give ley. LOL. Cos I'm changing soon, pointless to give you now. Haha.

Celine : You and that "Sec1 badminton junior'' are the same person right.. by judging the way you two type. Lol. Nothing better to do is it? Pangsai Warrior? Hyper Warrior. Wow -__-

Shafiqah : Is your friend anyhow put Pangsai Warrior kay! LOL. Alright, linked already :D

WEIZHI! :) : HOHO. Power Ranger Scene + SLAP SCENE! :D

Alif : Hi Hello Thanks. LOL. Yup. It's enough :D

JANET :D : Eh, link you already long ago liao leh. LOL. Hmmz, abothen, hurhur. Nice spikes rightttt. Hahaha :p

KRISTIE : XI KOK TAO AND PANTAT BOY ADVENTURES? LOL! Disturb me and also disturbing Nicholas is your past-time hobby during Pri School right.. Ahha. Take care (:

NASYITAH : LOL. Hope you get your own spikes soon then? Hahaha. Linked already yo.

haqs : Haha, thanks thanks. Will try lah. Just get something from Sports Day happy alreadyzx. All the best for Poly!

Cherie : YO HI HELLO NI HAO! (: (:

#35 : Disappointment.

2009-03-22T12:02:00.005+08:00

(sigh).

Disappointment.
Period.

#34 : Bored.

2009-03-21T12:28:00.001+08:00

Bored.
Hungry.

Good Day all.

#33: Wasted.

2009-03-19T22:15:00.005+08:00

It's like I'm blogging on a daily basis nowadays.
Blame the "Aiyah, tomorrow's no school anyway!" thinking. hahaha.

Today wasn't so productive.
Coe House training, there's only 4 people. LOL.
Lost the feeling to train plus the track's like congested when we were about to start.

When everyone left, just did some 400m drills to make sure I at least did SOMETHING.
Pathetic split timings but ohwell, new spike pins anyway, so could be problems with the change of my gait or somewhat.

Track&Field later on,
5-6 people. LOL.
Just a bit of conditioning here and there.

Argh, frustrating to know I kind of wasted a day. LOL.
Hopefully from Friday onwards I'll do some productive work!

#32 : Attitude?

2009-03-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

Badminton Day Camp ended today.
Mixed feelings, but I'm sure we can do a better job in the upcoming June Intensive Training Camp?
Jiayou!

Alright, now with the day camp being completed, now there's so much other things needed to be done! School projects, homework, self-training and such. Thank god I recovered fully from stomach flu.

School Sports Day Track Heats are next week, along with National Cross-Country the day after. Talk about a crammed schedule.

Nothing more to post about nowadays. Life's been pretty much boring.
Okay then. Take care all!

#31 : Bottom of This Bottle.

2009-03-16T21:26:00.006+08:00

Hmm, March's Week Break is here (:

Badminton Day Camp 1 is today, it was quite okay I guess...?
Although some ---- in between..
Hope we are able to do a better job tomorrow. JIAYOU ALL!

Let me try to remember my group members' names yo. (Group 4!)
I don't know how to spell the group name though. LOL.

GROUP 4!
Instructors.
Charmaine, Kun Cai, Yong Ren (supposedly?) and yours truly :D

(In alphabetical order)
Celine, Crystal, Ethan, Han Lin, Melvinder, Shafiqah, Sharian, Shi Hui, Qi Zhi.

I hope I had spelled the names correctly. LOL. Hope to know these people better.
GO BADMINTON AHHHHH.

Other than that, there's nothing much happening lately I guess? &Being introspective really do help in life, no matter how small such events can be, there's still a need to reflect your actions, in order to improve for the better. Why I am thinking about all these when I'm just 14 going on 15? I have no idea why either. Okay lah, I'm weird if you want to put it that way(:

Friends wise, it's all going good, I can feel the process of bonding and get to know one another more already after so long. I feel the need to be uber close with your secondary school peeps. After leaving of sport clubs to focus on studies and create time for more things, really do give me an insight that, "hey, you're studying in the school and you see people around you that you know and you regard them as friends, so why not?
Just get to know each other more and spend time doing stupid/lame/fun/ stuff together.
That's living life with people that you care for to the fullest(:
Countless memories.

That's all folks.
Take care all!
&To those who are having their March Term break,
make the best out of it yeah people!

tagbacks.

2009-03-15T20:51:00.002+08:00

haqs : Haha, cannot lah. Unlucky on Cross-Country ): was down with stomachache then had to do business halfway. 6th in placing cos of it. Disappointed.

Sec1 badminton junior : LOL? How did you come here? Hahaha, hello :D You are...? You too take care alright (:

Xueting : Hahaha, thanks thanks (:(: I'll try. Thanks for tagging :D

JANET :D : Tsk, you didn't dabian then don't say lar! Hahaha.

#30 : Regret.

2009-03-12T19:19:00.009+08:00

2008
(with Yu Hui's trophy at the far-left. LOL)

2009

1st in 2008, 6th in 2009.
(thanks to a toilet trip. LOL.)

Ahh, BBSS X-Country 2009 was full of mixed feelings. LOL.
Congrats on Qi Hao for getting 1st in Secondary Three!

Also to the rest who did their best!
&to those who felt like they didn't give much of what they know they are capable of,
there's always next year or any other chances yet to come,
take this race as a life skill learning opportunity,
to always have faith and never back down
even when the odds are against you sometimes.

It's not the prize or end result that matters,
It's the journey and the life values that is learnt
which were taken up along the way.

Regretted for going to the toilet to do big business (ahem) halfway. If not... (sigh)
Oh well, what's done is done. Just be contented with what you got (:
It could be a blessing in disguise? Who knows.

Nevertheless, congrats to all!

Nationals in 13 days. I'll get back my form then.
(hopefully no toilet trips halfway again!)

Oh, and HAN YU HUI. GET WELL SOON!
Hope you rest more bro. (:

#29 : Raise the Tempo.

2009-03-11T21:01:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow.
12th March 2009.
BBSS Annual X-Country.
All the best to all who are running!

tagbacks.

2009-03-08T18:36:00.001+08:00

xun yi : Red Rangers HUAT AH! (PALMS FORWARD!) LOL.

WEIZHI! :) : Linked! :D

Freddie : LOL, not emo lar, just look tired by my disposition. Hahaha, Happy Belated Birthday btw!

#28 : Relax Relapse.

2009-03-07T17:56:00.003+08:00

Life's been a rush these days. Sometimes we can even forget what date it is today. Hmm, Milo "Try-athlon" Triathlon at Sentosa was today. Didn't make the deadline to sign up, stupid right. Hahaha. Nevertheless, hope those who did participated had fun.

School's X-Country is coming very soon, along with Sports Day Heats and the eventual Sports Day? Nationals X-Country is also coming soon. Whoa. Don't forget the dreaded NAPFA Test next month. Lucky I don't have to do Pull Ups just yet, since I'm still 14. Yay. :p

Have been hitting the track for 2.4km runs, and damn it! I want to break the 8 minute barrier! Gonna put that as one of the goals for 2009. (oh, and those of you who will say I'm arrogant by saying this, I'm not even trying to show off, I'm just stating an aim here (: )

I'll bet that March will pass just like a breeze? SA1 will be soon to come! Everyone's have been telling each other to 'just do better in SA1' ever since the results for our Common Test. Sigh, really need to work harder. Although, almost every senior have been saying that "Secondary 3 is like that", it isn't nice to see your that particular result slip mocking at you, right?

Oh well, nothing more to post about nowadays, have a good weekend everyone!
Ciao.

#27 : That Won't Stop.

2009-03-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

It's not enough.
Never enough.
Keep raising the tempo.
Step it up.

tagbacks.

2009-03-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

Jinghui : Whoa, that's a lot of moo-lah manz. Don't waste anymore on such movies next time!!!

mardiah : Hello Hello! :D

Alif : OK, checked your e-mail yet? Hurhur.

Nicole : How long? 2 weeks (: and Name's Nabil have been reduced to Nabil (:

Juz : Hi Juzzeh (;

WEIZHI! :) : Red Rangers! ASSEMBLE! I got 21 UG Dollars with me still eh. LOL.

hiatus ; over.

2009-03-01T20:34:00.003+08:00

Yup. My short hiatus is over. Two weeks in fact. Haha. Common Tests are over, I got back some results for it, Science was very disappointing, but not shocking though, cos I know I didn't really study for it. English... my god. I bet it's marked in a 'don't-care' manner! Mathematics was alright! (: for the first time in ages. Although it isn't fantastic, but I'm contented, looking from how I fared in it last year. Mother Tongue, gave me a wake up call to score for it though, not only scrape through with a 'B' grade.

It's good to wake up at the start, rather than realising it in the end or mid-way, so I'm contented and am prepared to 'face-the-music' (: Work harder! And everyone else, work harder towards your respective goals :D

Hmm, March has landed! School Cross Country, Badminton Camp'09, Sports Day Heats, Nationals Cross Country (25th, I think?), etc. are already marked on my calendar. Wonder if there is anymore though.

Alright, don't want to make it more wordy than it already is.
Take care everyone! Have an excellent month of March!

#26 : Spiralling, Down.

2009-02-23T20:53:00.003+08:00

Just wanna take a breather from all the studying and such. (:

Some people are just plain ignorant.
They think the world revolves around them and them alone?
What happened to fair treatment?
What happened to treating people the way how you want them to treat you?
Bah, I wouldn't want to dwell on this any further. This just make my blood boil.
I can't take it any longer, do what you want. All the best. Ya, whatever.
I don't give a damn anymore.

On a lighter note,
Life's been going smooth-sailing with a bit of rough edges here and there.
Hope everyone's living the life the way they want it to be! (:

Alright, make the best out of everything, everyone!
Tag Replies will be by the end of this week, the end of my short hiatus. (:

hiatus.

2009-02-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hiatus.
It's time for me to sit down, study and get my priorities straight.
I have been procrastinating way too much.
I could have done so many things in a better way if I hadn't laze around.
Procrastination ends now.

#25 : Bitter Misery.

2009-02-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

Like the brightest star, you shine through.
You're the strength I need to fight,

You're the reason I still try.

tagbacks.

2009-02-15T15:38:00.004+08:00

KRISTIE : Hey! :D

Jodenia:) : Lol, I'm trying! Hurhur. NEVER SARPORK HAR. I got conned (again).

Mabel : NEBEL?! D: LOL. Sounds cute don't ya think. HAHAHA.

Nic! : Don't spam, or I'll shoot you. LOL. Just kidding. Yup I'm fine, you?

GRACETHEGREAT : YOU CRAZY AH? LOL. Wahlaoeh. Ask some of the class guys that until we du lan alr laaaa.

Jodenia:) : You don't play along k. LOL.

#24 : Through It All.

2009-02-11T19:43:00.002+08:00

Got to stop giving it easy during School Track&Field training (!!!)
Should more or less give my best shot and be serious?
(argh, miss track club ): )

Oh well, gym-ing and clocking runs all these while to make up for fitness training. Since the school's track and field training is rather easy to the extent I went slacking throughout :x

Badminton's B Boys Training starts tomorrow! (I think) Finally!

School's CrossCountry on March 12th. The date was changed from 13th I think? Hope I feel good that day! Going to give my best shot. Hopefully clock a good timing =) I don't really care about the placing though. All the best to all training for it?

Nationals coming soon also! Trying to get a better time too.

Alright, got to go off now.
Proper update some other day.

#23 : What Can We Find?

2009-02-08T20:53:00.004+08:00

Crap. I've been creating unnecessary pressure for myself nowadays. Procrastinate until I'm in deep sh-t now. I need to learn to get things done (a.s.a.p) man. (lol). Hmm, Chemistry Test tomorrow. Don't have any high hopes for it. Hmmm.

Ahhh, looking through the week, Friday's the 13th, and then Saturday's V.Day. (LOL). What kind of year do we have here. A weird one. klamewtf.

Nothing to say already. Have a good week ahead everyone!

booooooooooooooooooooom.

tagbacks.

2009-02-08T15:09:00.007+08:00

before I start replying, just gotta say... WHOA.
I thought I'm going to reply only one tag
but then I see a few more tags by the next day.

THANKS FOR TAGGING AH PEOPLE! :D

Ä@RòN™ : LOL. Stupid question my friend. Obviously it moved here, just a change of link.

yuhui : LOL? I updated yesterday liao leh. You update yours lorrrrrrr. Aaron ish slow? I agree manzx. LOL. Aaron, don't kill me :p

Alif : Whoa? Cooooooooooolzx. Exact same picture with exact same angle? Double Coolio! Me sense telepathy. LOL. klamewtf.

Joyce : Haha. Thanks for tagging! :D

Jinghui : Lol. Just ranting in my previous post. Relaxed after I ranted already le mahhhhhh.

#22 : Walls Closing In.

2009-02-07T12:51:00.003+08:00

Showing the Way (Perhaps?)

So shoot me for being human.
It's not like you don't have your own flaws anyway.
You know who you are.
YES, YOU.

Screw it. I need to find a proper group of friends. It's been like this sh-tty kind of deal for way too long already. I should be happy. Who doesn't want to feel happy? Rather than asking or more like begging to know what the f-ck is wrong. Seriously, F-CKING SCREW THIS. I'm already doing my part for trying to reflect and change, but what about the other party? Only blame me or whatever sh-t there is to it right?

Oh, and if any one of you happen to read this and thinks it's you and start to tell/text me offensive things, just let me tell you this.

Assumption is for dumb-asses. So don't assume it's you please.
This is my blog space. I'm free to rant as long I don't include any names here.

#21 : Pfffft.

2009-02-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

Just wanna get a shout out across.

Sorry to all that have had endured my obnoxious and loud way of speech.
Life's been a mess nowadays. Sorry about that! Really sorry!
Trying hard to talk like a proper person :/

&I want to stop wearing retainers for the whole day everyday soon!!!
hopefully dental appointment next week, dentist's gonna allow to only wear that during sleep.

So many people cannot hear what I'm talking cos of it!
Friends who had their braces removed also refuse to wear retainers just cos of that problem.

I may not be in the position to complain since there's so much more people out there handling tougher sh-t but, I need to get the drive to do things done quickly!

Argh, till next time!

#20 : Get You Thinkin'

2009-02-01T20:04:00.005+08:00

A Very-The-Cool Teacher

What does this picture tells you? Think about it. HAHAHA. Coolio!
Credits to 3e4'09's blog! :D

#19 : Staring Into The Skyline.

2009-02-01T12:40:00.008+08:00

The Late Nights Home

I had a major blow to my self-esteem the past week, (don't ask me why, other than those few people that know about it). But the feeling of a new month is just simply refreshing. I hope to end this month of February brimming with positiveness rather than crashing down with negativity, like somewhat I had ended my month of January with.

Oh, and it feels good to play/fool around with some of the guys of 2e3'08 (and Qi Hao, LOL). Reminiscing the past year, refills you with that mood of nostalgia doesn't it? No matter how much deep the sh-t you got yourself into last year, there's still so much other things that you are missing right now (admit it). Argh, I just can't breeze through the transition to the new year, although it's a month into it.

Ahh, I've nothing to say already, well, might be posting again tonight.

ciao!

tagbacks.

2009-02-01T12:17:00.006+08:00

junyi : Lol. Happy Niu Year to you too (:

Jinghui : why ish so high eh? LOL. Hello :D

SAMANTHA:) : EH. I so old still must give meah? ): HUAT AH!

kahwang : sorry for the belated wish yeah? (:

Alif : Lol thanks. Astroninja ftw.

JO:D : Those who did not get conned at least once by her, that's a miracle man.. LOL. Support? NEVER! I WILL NEVER SARPOKKKK.

Xueting : You ish funneh arh. You more suitable lor. LOL. I'd rather sarpok you and the others horr. Hurhur.

Revamp?

2009-01-27T16:29:00.002+08:00

Hell yeah!
Spent a good thirty minutes changing the colour and skin.
Sport a good ol' revamp!

#18 : Paper Walls.

2009-01-27T11:26:00.004+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI AHHHHHH

How was the first day of the New Year yesterday eh? Hope all had fulfilled their desires.. *cough* hong baos and goodies.. hehe.

I finally seen for myself a group of aunties and uncles singing away during their karaoke session. Whoa, talk about being high. Seriously, HIGHHHH. The thought of it scares me. & that is worse than the sight of a group of aunties dancing away at the void deck. That's hip yo! Also, the auntie that sold drinks and all last year before the vendors got a change of people, PARTICPATES IN THE FRIGGIN LINE DANCE AT THE VOID DECK BELOW MY HOUSE. OMGGG.
Okay seriously manzx. That's being young at heart yo.

Hmm, still got a Mother Tongue assignment to be done, but hell, I have some dignity to not take picture of myself to be posted at the Mother Tongue Room, but ah sh-t. It got to be handed in tomorrow. Crappy homework suck crappy b-lls. Period. I'll try find some Sec2 photo of myself taken candid or whatever.

Need to stop procrastinating and get my lazy ass to do some productive work.
See ya all!
(PS : Plainsunset is KICKASS! Local Music ish awwwwesome.)

#17 : Whoa Oh.

2009-01-25T22:08:00.004+08:00

ohmygod, 3 tags in a week? Pathetic righttt. Hahha, oh well, cannot blame anyone since life's been so hectic nowadays. & by the way, power naps are goodddddddd :D Really give you that jolt of energy in the afternoon when you need it most.

I wonder who will be the Head Prefect, Vice-head and the ExCos accordingly for BBSS' 14th Prefectorial Board. Nevertheless, I will sarpok(support) them ah! Used to dislike being a prefect (forgot what's the reason though. hahaha), but that was then. The feeling's different now. Feels like you have a sense of belonging to the school. Can't describe it but yeah. Somewhat. Hahaha.

Alright. Short update.

Gong Xi Fa Cai ah!